Last 2 Weeks

I went on a bit of a downwards slide on the weekend before Halloween. Found out my ex has a promise ring from his new girl. He proceeds to show it to me, tells me what it is, and realizing his stupidity says, “it’s not what you think it means”. Well it may not mean much to him, but I’m sure it does to her.

She also has to have ordered it while he & I were still together. Not impressed.

Spent the next week either busy af, or just feeling everything. No middle ground. Either complete distraction or completely emotional. No stability.

Slowly been trying to work through my emotions about the end of that relationship this last week.. Ups and down, but they are becoming a little less of a roller coaster. Even small improvement is improvement.

It’s OK To Not Be OK

My sleep schedule is screwed up again, not a surprise. So my intention was to get up early, relatively speaking, today.. That did not happen.

When my alarm went off yesterday, I kept hitting snooze and hitting snooze and hitting snooze. My brain didn’t want to get up yet.

So when I finally did get coherent, I really did not want to get out of bed. I don’t feel like I’m in the mental space to do much. So I canceled all my plans for today which included pickups for items for my Cubs, a run around the dog park with my pup and a visit to a friend.. all I’ve done today is let my dog out and go to the bathroom.. I still need to grab a bite to eat though and that will be something quick and dirty.

But it’s okay. Some days it’s just hard mentally, emotionally. Some days it’s just more difficult to cope. And for me yesterday it was one of those days.

it’s OK to not be OK.

Just recognize it for what it is and be aware. If it’s just a one-off like mine tend to be, you could just bounce back and be yourself tomorrow. Sometimes it takes a while.. couple of days.. a week to get out of the funk. If it goes more than a week though, consider talking to someone. Even just virtually, it can help..

Welcome !

Welcome to my Blog!

My name is Kelli.. But I am also known online as Neon Rose and it’s variations (I answer to the name Neon, IRL).. I am also known, in scouting circles as Koolaid – yes, as in the drink (long story, I’ll tell ya some time)

This blog is about my life, my medical issues and any information I can share thereof.. I have been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, Endometriosis, Allergies, Sensitivities, Asthma, Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS), Depression, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (CFS/ME), Hypo active Thyroid, Restless Legg Syndrome (RLS),  Osteoarthritis (OA) and a host of other issues that are part and partial to go with the above mentioned. The focus here is going to be mainly on Fibromyalgia (hence the title), but will also include fibro-related issues and Endometriosis.

Why, you ask, primarily on Fibromyalgia. Well, cuz Fibro is the most significant issue at the moment.. My endo is under control, as is my asthma, RLS, allergies, etc.. Also, Fibromyalgia is also the least understood, most misdiagnosed and under treated condition that I have. If I can just help one other person, then, I’ll feel awesome cuz I have helped someone. (Why do I suddenly have a girl guide song in my head? *shrug*).

What aspects am I gonna cover? Everything I can. If you look at my categories you will see I plan to cover many areas of traditional and non-traditional medicines including Eastern medical philosophies, faith, as well as non-medical areas of life. I also plan to cover support (financial & emotional) and daily living and coping.

If you have questions, please feel free to ask.I will do my best to answer.

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