Isn’t It Ironic?

I have had a new pain occur in my right arm. I knew it wasn’t a fibro pain; it felt different. At first I thought I’d somehow pulled or tore the muscle somehow cuz the pain seemed to radiate from near the upper end of the back of my forearm (what is the right name for this part of the body?) . As the pain became more localized, it decreased towards the muscle and centred just below the elbow.

I saw my GP yesterday cuz one can only tolerate something like that for a certain amount of time without a diagnosis. So, my diagnosis is that I have tendonitis due to repetitive stress.. At the elbow.. So I have fibromyalgia and *smirk* tennis elbow! Oh the irony!

Pain

I hate being it pain! I can’t stand that I feel ‘fine’ when I wake in the early morning to take my meds, then later I am in more pains. It’s scary that when I lay here and I can feel the pain creeping down my body until every muscle hurts, even if it’s not horrible bad. It’s just as bad, if not worse than a localized flare with a higher pain level. When it’s localized, at least there are some movements that don’t yell at me. But when it feels like every muscle from top to bottom is hurting, nothing can be done without some sort of retaliation from my body. And when the pain meds don’t help, what can I do? Today I’ve already maxed out (& then some) on my narcotics, as well as my muscle relaxer.. Why does God have to play such a cruel game? To quote Depeche Mode, “I don’t want to start any blasphemous rumours, but I think that God’s got a sick sense of humour.”

 

Now, consider how this also impacts my SO, when the relationship isn’t as strong as it should be. It frustrates, him, me, and all those around us.

Pray for me?