He doesn’t get it

Today, or rather the wee hours of the morning of today, he Didn’t get it.

So, we get in from a walk with my puppy, & I do our bedtime routine.. I crawl into bed, and at about 1:30am- 2am … my leggs seize! From hip to the very last muscle at the very bottom on my feet.. Not a charlie horse where it cramps but everything, both leggs, seized up.. Normally it’s just one legg & it’s not hugely nasty like this.. But it was hugely nasty in both limbs.. They’re like charlie horses in that I have to gain control over the muscles however a charlie horse requires a short, but hugely nasty controlled clenching almost like creating a controlled, but more intense spasm then its over. But not with this. It doesn’t need as much force, but it does require a nice chunk of time in the clenched state, significantly more time. Unfortunately that means a longer duration of pain.. But I can handle that.

All I could think was ‘Thank God I am in bed’..

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A little later at about 3am, the dog goes nuts cuz she’s gotta go bathroom.. One of us needs to take her out or she goes in the apartment. But he’s too tired, has “no energy”. Even after I explain what happened, he still expects me to go.. So almost 15 minutes to dress into jammie pants & a tee beside me that I have for when I need to take puppy out at night. And another 45 min to walk from the back-side to the front door. An hour to do a 5 minute potty break.

You’d think knowing how much knowing my pain can impact me.. and the intense fatigue to goes along with it that he’d be more understanding.. So, today I you’d think he’d have more understanding & empathy.. Nope, this time he Don’t get it. *sigh*

Where Have I Been?

In bed, for the most part.. Seriously.. The fog’s been thick and the healing sleep has been damn near extinct, thus the pain’s been rather nasty.
Doc takes me off my sleep meds & has me double up on my melatonin while he waits for blood results. This switch did squat to help.
So the bloodwork comes in & there’s not much there that’s a problem except thyroid levels are still too high. So up the thyroid meds & try new sleep meds..
New meds are a psychiatric medication. They made me sleep all damn night & most of the day! And none of that sleep was good sleep.. I have to thank God for the patches. & the pain pills I’m on.. So they psych meds last about a week & he put me on a medication I am already on, prescribed by my gp.. So back on nothing at all new & taking pain meds & oodles of melatonin..

So here I am.. Back on the clonazepam, waiting for it to work & over doing life yesterday was not the best choice.. Hope the current sleep meds kick in & help.. My body just wants to finally feel improved, preferably w/o extra pills..