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Relationships

November 18, 2021

This is a very personal topic & I know some will be ticked off to hear of my relationship status . While this post does touch on the topic of polyamory, every negative comment will me removed. Immediately. So if you don’t have something nice to say, don’t say anything at all…


I am in an open relationship. I have one partner, however, he has recent started another relationship and I’ve been having alot of problems processing.. So for the last month I’ve been living with my stomach in knots

Part of the issue is super poor communication. But part of it appears to be mental health.

After I left Rob, I had alot & I mean alot of councilling.. Probably for close to a year when I started to feel comfortable in my own skin again..

It seems that there is one area that we did not touch upon and that is my self-esteem and self worth issues in regards to personal, intimate relationships.

Previous relationships since Rob have been superficial at best. I’ve seen several guys in the last few years, but one has stuck. I’ve known him since April 2018 and we’ve become super close. He and I, before he met his other partner, we just starting to get serious. Just bad timing on that I think.

Over the last month there has been very poor communication. Part of that is poor communication skills and part of it is him not understanding his feelings quite yet.. and because of that he was unable to express himself well..

We’ve had many conversations over the last month’s & every time we talk I think we’ve established where we are and then something gets said and I spiral down.. and considering how strong I feel for him I went down and down hard & few times. I’ve ended things with him 3 times this month but I guess I I’m a glutton for punishment because the same thing happened four weeks in a row.

Over the last few days we’ve been able to meet in person and finally have a truly open and honest conversation. I told him where I stand emotionally…

So as it stands he is emotionally committed to both of us and wishes to focus on his new relationship but has realized that he can’t start neglecting me or stop communicating with me or work on our relationship.

He has a relationship with her and he has a relationship with me.. Those relationships don’t have to cross or compete.. that’s part of my own issue of perception but we’ve apparently both felt this and because he wasn’t communicating the same thing to both of us.. So he is going to continue working on his relationship with her but at this time same time he is going to continue working on his relationship with me.

Rememberance Day

November 11, 2021

November 11th is the day to honour armed forces members who have died in the line of duty, and those who have come before us. It commemorates the end of First World War hostilities. Hostilities formally ended “at the 11th hour of the 11th day of the 11th month” of 1918. The signing of the Treaty of Versailles was the official end of WWII, in late June, 1919.

Penned by Canadian poet, soldier, and physician John McCrae in April 1915 at battle in Belgium’s Ypres salient

My Scouting

October 15, 2021

The Who When Where Why & How I Do Cub Scouts

At age 5 my Mom enrolled me in Brownies, then I went up to Guides. I did one year of Guides then quit cuz I didn’t like the program, wasn’t having fun & it conflicted with my dance class. 4 months later Mom puts me in another Company where I did enjoy the program.

But, during this time, my older brother went through the Boy Scout program. For meeting nights when Mom was working & I was not old enough to be left on my own, I got to be present at Cub & Scout meetings. . I remember the real wolf head that they had for the cub totem. I remember playing Barbie’s in the gym change room while Cub or Scout meetings were going on. Being a girl I wasn’t allowed to participate, but I do remember sitting &: watching different parts of the meetings. I remember tagging along to the rifle range (again not allowed to be alone at home), but I was not allowed to shoot because of my age, but probably my gender too cuz it was still “Boy Scouts”.

So I kept on in Girl Guides, earning my All-Around Cord. Up to Pathfinders I went. I was on track, or even ahead of schedule to earning my Canada Cord until my leader refused to accept the paperwork, from another Guider, confirm that I had organized & implemented by own full weekend camp. So I quit & went to the Guide shop and bought it for myself. My next year, I was a Junior Leader for the Brownie pack I grew up on.

The next year, I was hedging about what to do.. & was chatting with my friends Chris & Joann. I asked what they were up to that night. Jo said homework, but Chris said he had a Venturer meeting at Samac, shooting rifles. First words out of my mouth “Can I come?” Followed by “How much is registration?” I haven’t looked back.

I continued in Scouting as a youth to age 26. I started leadership at age 18 the took a break for post-secondary, returning back to the organization to my original group. I it was my Troop scouts who gave me the name Koolaid.. & that is a story in its own..

Over the years, I’ve worked with 2 colonies, 3 packs, 4 troops, 1 company & in a Service Scouter role.

In my younger days, I preferred, as you can tell, working at troop level.. Unfortunately, due to health I I ended up completely withdrawing from Scouting for a number of years as I worked through my health & my relationship. After 10 years, I left that relationship which helped my health. I wanted to return to scouting, but I knew I could not physically function at the level needed for Scouts. My nephew, a scout, wanted to be an SiT (Kim/Keeo) so he & I joined the colony.. 2 years later he wanted to go up to cubs, and I went with him. After 2 more years, he chose to continue his SiT at the troop level.. I stayed in Cubs for 2 reasons, he was old enough now that I didn’t need to be with him. And 2, I had found my niche

So, what do I get out of it? Besides free range time with the troop? Hehe.. Ok – Serious now. I like knowing I’m helping teach the new generation. I like working with this level – they don’t have that pre-teen attitude that fully blooms at 12-14.. I like being looked up to, knowing I mentoring some be in some small way. I like that I can walk through the mall & hear a voice say “Hey! Koolaid!” Knowing that he (or she) remembers me , shows I *am* having an impact on these kids.. I like the activities we do. Many are the same as scouts, just not as advanced. I like having something consistent in my schedule. I know I always have something scheduled on Tuesdays & Wednesdays from 6:45-8 .. I like hearing the kids laughing, getting along, learning together, competing against each other and just having fun! I like how it makes me feel as a person – this is the shallow one.

My years in Guiding topped out at 9 years, but that does not include the years I helped at guide & brownie camps for my Goddaughters. I was not officially registered for theses events.

My youth Scouting years topped out at 10 years. My leadership years are a little more clouded.. Scouts Canada’s records say I’m on year 20 & with my Rover years, that seems about right..

There are overlapping years of youth & leadership years which is why the number doesn’t seem to match up. So, all told I have 32 years (including this one) within these two organizations.. With many more to come!!


Yes, I realize I missed the how.. How can I do this stuff with Fibro.. *that* is another post.


Edit: Due lack of leadership availability, my Wednesday pack has closed and has merged in with my Tuesday pack.

Missed Posts

July 27, 2021

I have noticed that I do miss making some of my posts. I do try to get them up on other Monday or Tuesday and then other Thursday or Friday. I apologize for when I do miss.

There are three possible, but 2 are very opposite reasons. I am either feeling so crappy that I have not interest or motivation due to either physical or mental health, or I am feeling well, so much so that I forget to post cuz I’m actually living my life, taking advantage of the good times.

the third is that I could not find the app to install on my new phone that allows me to easily edit. The WordPress app on Goggle Play bites. I finally had to get it from WordPress.com to get the one I wanted. Now that it’s installed, I should be getting more into the groove.

Yes, I can schedule posts & I do.. I just forget sometimes.

So, I’m sorry..

My Apologies

June 8, 2021

I had so many posts last month I forgot to get some set up for June!! Oops . My apologies.

It didn’t help that I spent the last week getting ready for virtual cub camp, our Council Cuboree.

There *will* be a new post later this week.

I Got my Shot

May 14, 2021

Recently, I received an email from Sobey’s Grocery stores in response to my request to be waitlisted for the vaccine.. They said, I was eligible for the COVID vaccine, for the AstraZeneca vaccine. Finally!!

AZ Vacvine

I went & signed up. It turns out the closest location for the shot was in the city a Gerrard & Vic Park. I’m sure there’s not a lot of you familiar with the geography of Toronto but from my home it is approximately 50 km or just over 30 miles ( just under an hour away) to that specific grocery store for my shot. But I was going to be going into Scarborough (East Toronto) anyways because of Lilly’s surgery. I figured I’d would kill two birds with one stone.

My Shot, Thursday

So my appointment was on Thursday, at 11:30am. It was super quick. By the time my brain registered the sensation of the needle, she was already putting it syringe into the sharps bin.So, even if you don’t like needles, it’s not that bad. I stayed the required 15 minutes. No reaction initially other than some moderate nausea.

Waiting n the cubical for the pharmacist to give me my shot

The nausea stayed with me for the day. I was a little tired afterwards & had a short nap which helped me feel a little better. Even went for walk with my sister in the evening.

My Reactions – That Night

By 2:00am the nausea was worse, so much so that I had an empty bucket beside my bed, just in case.

Shortly after that I noticed I was cold. I was eventually shivering despite pj’s and warm bedding. My temperature at this time was 38 & change in Celcius .

My arm was sore, but most people have that reaction. My fibro was triggered and my pain was climbing everywhere. At worst I’d say 5/10.

By 5:00 this morning my body had switched from shivering to sweating. I was also having a headache kick in. I took some Tylenol with codeine and was finally able to get back to sleep.

My Reactions – Next Day, Friday

I was abruptly woken up by my Mom at 10:30am for a temperature check. It was 36.8, completely normal. After checking Lilly & giving her meds (see her surgical post if you are interested), I went back to bed. Fortunately in the morning, the body wide pain had taken a step back and no more shivering or sweating. I did still have the headache, and the nausea but it was not as bad.

As the day wore on I’d flip from chills to overheating, but no temperature. The nausea kept up and I did rush to the bathroom with dry heaves. The body-wide aches went back up by bedtime.

My Reactions – Day 2 Post Vaccine, Saturday

Still has ongoing flipping between chills & hot flashes. Left arm still sore.. Ongoing body aches all during the day.. Still nauseous, but not actually vomiting..sent alot of my time resting.

My Reactions – Day 3 Vaccine, Sunday.

Chills & hot flashes completely abated by the evening and the nausea aswell. Still had body-wide aches & pains.

My Reactions – Day 4 & 5, Monday & Tuesday.

I think by this point I was completely finished reacting to the actual vaccine, whoever my fibromyalgia decided to react to the vaccine reaction. Oh so fun. So by the time I woke up on Monday I was in a lovely little fibro flare that has lasted several days. Only thing I accomplished was the opening & closing of my Tuesday Night Cub meeting.

So, by this point my actual immunoreaction to the medication in the vaccine was done, but not the end of this saga of my vaccine.. Read here for more on this story.

Scout Popcorn

April 22, 2021

It’s Baa-aak!!!

Family Movie Night In

Yes. I know. You missed it in the fall, but we have finally started the 2020-2021 Popcorn campaign..

Who: You

What: We have a new supplier of Nut-free, Gluten-free, Premium, Canadian Popcorn products They include popping kernels, Caramel Corn, Belgian Chocolate Drizzled Caramel Corn and Popcorn Seasoning. We also offer bundles of popped kernels in combinations with Cheddar, Butter,. Sweet & Salty,. Dill, Salt & Vinegar, and BBQ Flavours.

Where: http://www.ScoutPopcorn.ca

When: the campaign runs April 15 – June 15 2021

Why: Scouts Canada says it’s to help support Scouting Groups in funding more great adventures and most importantly, you give kids something to look forward to. PThisvfundraisevall.supportd the No Youth Left Behind subsidy program, helping youth facing economic barriers experience the benefits of Scouting..

Why Us: I’m with the 1st & 13th/30th Oshawa Cub packs. 2 weeks after the word shut down in March 2020, the 13th Oshawa started back up again, in a virtual environment. 2 weeks later we were joined by the 1st Oshawa to run the 2 packs together for the remained of the Scouting Year, including a virtual camp in June.

We know this had been hard on the youth and for some of them, Cubs was their only social.interaction with friends outside of their Bubble. Because of that, we continued on through the summer part time including a second virtual camp requested by the youth..

Due to lack of available leadership, in September we amagimated the 21st Oshawa into the 1st & 13th Oshawa Packs.. We have been bouncing between virtual & in-person meetings depending on the government & Scouts Canada restrictions. We also had the 30th merge with the 13th in January..

To run our programs, the youth need supplies for virtual activities, and even some supplies for in-person activities (cuz you never know what we will get flipped in virtual only). So, we have been providing this to the youth with very little funding, as we are not currently braking weekly dues. Every 6 weeks or so, the youth receive Cub Adventure Kits with supplies such as paint, wax, popsicle sticks, rope, first aid supplies, seeds, dirt, building kits for birdhouses, Kub Kars, drink stations & other projects, rocks, origami, Soapstone and snacks.

It is through the support of people like you who purchase the Scouts Canada products like the Scout Popcorn, Scout Coffee & Scout Seeds. And for that I, WE, Thank You.

Note: While the 1st Oshawa is not participating in this fundraiser, you with find the 13th Oshawa Cub Pack listed with our other sections, as well as the 30th Oshawa.

Women with Endometriosis

March 29, 2021

I have a huge list of approximately 60 or more international women of note who other has endometriosis or strongly suspected of having endometriosis. I’m just going to.list off a few that I can remember off the top of my head.

  • Jillian Micheals – Fitness trainer, known for TV show “The Biggest Loser”
  • Sinead O’Connor – Irish singer, known for her rendition of “Nothing Compares to You”
  • Hillary Clinton – former First Lady and 2016 Presidential Candidate
  • Marilyn Monroe – Actress
  • Julianne Hough – Dancer, know for “Dancing with the Stars”
  • Susan Sarandon – Actress
  • Whoopi Goldberg – Comedian/Actress/Daytime tv host
  • Cyndi Lauper – Singer
  • Emma Bunton – British Singer, known more commonly as Baby Spice
  • Amy Schumer – Comedian/Actress
  • Daisy Ridley – Actress, known for Star Wars
  • Chaz Bono – Son of Sonny Bono & Cher. (Transgender)’⁰

Mask Fund-raiser

March 16, 2021

Face Mask Fundraiser For The 1st, 13th & 30th Oshawa Scouting Groups

These are some of the fabric patterns we have…On last check we had 70+ different ones

Will you help support these Oshawa Scouting groups, Beavers, Cubs, Scouts, Venturers & Rovers through our handmade cloth face mask fundraiser? We are raising funds for events, materials and activity expenses.

We have premium reusable 3-ply cloth face masks available for sale in both youth and adult sizes. The masks are available for $12 each for youth and $15 each for adult. Available for local pickup (Oshawa/Durham or possibly Scarborough) or can be mailed within Canada. Shipping and Handling is $2 for first mask and $1 for ea additional masks. 13th Oshawa Scouting will receive 50% of the sales.

  • 100% cotton, double layered (high quality quilting cotton) PLUS Non-woven filtering centre layer.
  • Style designed for improved breathability
  • Elastic ear loops are adjustable for comfort and for better fit.
  • Metal nose piece reduces eye glass fogging (all adult masks. This can be added at no charge to youth masks by request)
  • Reusable, handmade, machine washable
  • Additional fabric styles and sizes available.

**Custom sizes can be made for a small additional surcharge. Perfect for larger faces or those with beards.

Me, in my Purple Sparkles fabric from our masks both with – without my glasses on – No Fog!!

We have a Facebook Group with additional information including all fabrics.. We currently have just over 70.. with over 10 more fabric patterns on deck.

To purchase, e-transfers can be sent to 13thOshawaCubPack@gmail.com

International Women’s Day 2021

March 8, 2021

March 8,1917 – Women gained suffrage in Soviet Russia. March 8 was adopted by the feminist movement circa 1967. The UN began celebrating the day in 1977.

The purpose as I understand it, is to celebrate women. To support and build each other up. To celebrate the progression of equal rights, and gender equality.

In some countries the official flower of Women’s Day is a Yellow Mimosa

The UN’s Theme for International Women’s Day 2021 is “Women in leadership: Achieving an equal future in a COVID-19 world”